First things first, I will take the time to address the elefante (for my non-Spanish speaking friends, that means elephant; Just throwing it out there) in the room. I understand that I swore I’d never take a large amount of time off from writing again and that is half true. I did still journal, in my real life journal, like with my pencil and notebook (yes, millennials, writing in notebooks still exists!). I didn’t write here and with good reason. But I am back from the dead. I will get to that reason why I haven’t written, in a later post, but for now I want to touch base on what caught me off guard yesterday.
Believe it or not, that CAN happen. And it did. I need to be on these long toes a little more.
Someone asked me, “what are you obsessed with?” I didn’t expect that question so, of course, I started rattling off the things that are pretty much face value:
- Gump life (my running)
- My rescue farm which consists of my dog, Broomhilda Von Shaft, my geriatric cat, Samson and my youngest cat, Wendy Williams. (However, I do love ALL animals.)
- Coldplay (if you don’t instantaneously feel good after blasting “Sky Full of Stars” or “Every Teardrop Is A Waterfall” we can’t be buds), 90s/2000s hiphop music (Mary J and Method Man? Yes, please), randomly dancing around my house or at the gym
- My humble abode and the area in which I reside
- My health and fitness routine
- Astrology (super recent but it took over)
…and the rest of the basics that you would normally think of off of the top of your head. But when I really thought about it, I am obsessed with a lot of things that people may or may not catch onto about me. Here are just a few and I hope I can connect with some of you, too.
- Connection. I crave and I am obsessed with human connection. Here is a quote from one of my favorite peeps, Brene Brown:
“I define connection as the energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgment; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship.”
- I adore being in nature. I grew up in the City (well, Hoboken, NJ, five minutes outside of NYC) and the closest that I really got to nature there were some trees or the weeds in the cracks of the sidewalks. I am not knocking it, I am eternally grateful for being born and raised there, but there is something about being lost in a forest or running a trail. It truly cleanses the mind, body and soul. Until you run into a bear and you sh*t your pants. Or close. Like I did.
- I can’t get enough of pictures. I get this from my mother. I take pictures of everything and anything that I find beautiful whether it be people, places, things, food, flowers, a gorgeous landscape, animals, sunrises or sunsets (if you follow my Instagram, you’ll see a ton of those). I’ll do anything to get a good picture whether it’s lay on the ground or climb a tree (thanks for that proof, Kristy). You can never relive a moment as much as you may want to; the second best is having a picture to view, in addition to your memory.
- Long walks on gorgeous mornings. There is nothing better than breathing in fresh morning air and letting the stale air out.
- Coffee. Lots of coffee. Lattes. LoCarb Monsters. More coffee. Did I say coffee?
- Christmas! Everything about Christmas. Christmas movies. Christmas candles. Christmas traditions (not setting the house on fire while frying calamari). Christmas décor. If you know me, you know it looks like a vomit pile of Pier 1 and Crate and Barrel in my home during the holidays.
- Lavallette, NJ. ❤
- Listening to the rain on the skylight in my master bedroom.
- Seeing people hold hands while walking. My heart could literally burst.
- Autumn. No explanation necessary. The leaves teach us how beautiful it is to let go. I also told you I love beautiful morning walks. S*it, that was also an explanation.
- Eating. Eating everything in sight. I literally eat anything that’s not nailed down as long as it is not meat. I love breakfast on weekend mornings most. There is something so beautiful about eating breakfast with family or friends.
- Squeezing dirt out of my old belly button ring hole. I know, gross, but so gratifying.
- Waking up in the morning and stretching super big while making obnoxious noises.
- Pajamas and my couch.
- Books. Reading. Especially reading old books that have that musty a** smell.
- Trying to be better than I was the previous day. Learning something new everyday even if it’s a new word from my dictionary app.
- My teeth. Literally obsessed with my teeth. One, one surface cavity, in my lifetime, and I never needed braces. Big up to my Creator!
- The smell of babies. I could literally sniff them for days. But not after they sh*t their diapers. Like, after they’re cleaned up with baby cologne on them (my Mom used to pour that PMB stuff on me until I was like, 8.5yrs old).
- Loving myself. It took 32+ years to finally learn how to do it and why it’s SO important. It’s not being self-centered, it’s not being selfish, it’s not putting others to the side. Self care will never be selfish. You literally have to love yourself to show up and to better for others as a friend, lover, or even a colleague. Can I add emotional intelligence to this bullet? SO IMPORTANT.
- Being with my family. The older I get the more I appreciate this. Even if we’re at each other’s throats every now and then.
- Laughing so hard it brings me to tears. My full on Pee Wee Herman x Original Ford Model T horn laugh. You know it’s extra real if a snort accidentally happens or food starts flying everywhere.
- Not being what people expect me to be. I can’t tell you how many times someone has said to me, “I never thought you’d be nice” or “you don’t look like you’d be so down to earth” or my personal favorite “I didn’t think you’d be smart.”
- Laying on the beach. Give me four hours and Sea Bright, NJ and I’m good, B.
- …and I saved my favorite for last. Manifesting, Gratitude and having Faith. Truly having faith, not just saying, “Lawd, Jesus, I have faith! Now give me a million dollars!” It doesn’t work like that. If it did I’d ask for a couple stacks every single day. Faith plus works. My life has completely changed since I started practicing all three. YOU and only YOU have the ability to change your life. I challenge you to start practicing these arts and I can promise your life will completely overhaul. No, I am not a millionaire, but I have a stable job/career, enough money to take care of myself and I am definitely rich in ways that will never meet the naked eye.
I hope a little 60W energy efficient light bulb went off, in your heads, to think about what you’re totally obsessed with. And keep being obsessed! There is nothing wrong with it if it’s making you happy. In the end, that’s all that matters.